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[May. 10th, 2008|09:32 am] |
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I actually really like LA.........no not because of movie starness or all that shit everyone thinks of when they think of LA.
I like the city itself....or at least the parts I saw. Melrose is like, St. marks times 50, the residental neighborhoods have interesting stores too (i was there with a friend from MI yesterday so we were hanging out around his place), there are like 10000000 goth clubs, the people are most intriguing, and I MET THE LEAD SINGER OF A METAL BAND WHO ARE GONNA MAKE IT BIG AND HE'S REALLY NICE AND SO IS THE BASSIST AND WE HUNG OUT WITH THEM AND AHHHHH I KNOW PROFFESSIONAL MUSICIANS NOW JGNJRTHBJRKHBJHSRHBJKS
They're gonna sign on roadrunner records really soon, and they're really serious about their work and dud they're fucking GOOD. Called Redeemer. Look up their myspace if you want GOOD metal. They're the ones from LA (cuz there are like 3 that pop up). No Emily they're not death metal but not nu metal so give them a chance anyway XP
Today is see cousins who are all mad older than me day. And then the jerry herman thing. Woo. I wanna stay in LA longer Costa Mesa is meh!!!!!!!! >.<
Only thing is I wish i could dance here and see jon :/ |
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[May. 10th, 2008|03:14 pm] |
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I realized something today.
I used to write in a diary like EVERY DAY ALL THE TIME. 6th grade-11th grade nonstop. Then i gradually stopped. I wrote for a bit this year then stopped in february.
I tried writing in it today, about thought i was feeling about lots of things...the future, the present, the past, the two sides of myself, others, my wannabe career, the world, traveling, my magick, boys, friends, etc. I got about two pages in, then stopped.
I'm afraid of my thoughts.
It's not that I'm afraid of talking to anyone in terms of content. There's really nothing shameful or bad or horrible or anything negative. It's all quite neutral subject matter really. It's just that all my thoughts are questions or confusion related and thinking/writing/talking about them just gets me so muddled and i dont kno what to do with myself and it does more harm than good. I live in the present. I tend not to think about the future cuz it wont do too much good it'll only make me anxious. But damnit, if im alone with nothing to do for an extended amount of time I start to think WAAAAAAAAAAAY too much. It's actually mentally painful.
distractions are very good..... |
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